194.....ONE HUNDRED AND NINETY~FOUR POUNDS.
There...I've said it. Everyone knows I ain't no skinny thang anyway. But 194 lbs. DANG! Well, 194.6 lbs to be exact. So, now what am I going to do with those numbers, now that I've just admitted to the world how much I weigh?? I'll tell ya what I'm going to do. I'm gonna quit messing around and get serious about that nasty number. For years, I've watched the numbers climb higher and higher and in all those years, the WISHING and WANTING to lose weight hasn't done me a bit of good yet. Time for a change and that time is NOW. Just last week, a relative, someone whom I love dearly, was hospitalized. I won't go into the details for her privacy's sake but it was a wake~up call to us all, I think. I've been hospitalized in that past for extremely high blood pressure, the result of smoking AND my diet. But I didn't take heed. I didn't care enough to MAKE the change. I'm not sure what the difference is now but it's happening and I'm ready to take action. Anytime in the past that I attempted to lose weight, to make any type of life~style change, I was always my biggest "saboteur". I'd be on a diet and see chocolate and have a battle within myself. To eat it or not to eat it. Of course I always ate it. I told myself if I WANT that piece of chocolate or candy bar, then I'M GONNA EAT IT! That's precisely why my scales say 194 lbs too. My daily diet is one of the worse that I've seen of anyone I know. I literally drink almost ONLY RC soda, with a cup or 2 of coffee a day thrown in there too. My soda intake a day?? About 8 a day. Yep...EIGHT!! If I had to take a guess at how many glasses of water I drank in a year, it would probably be about 10...or less. I drink coffee but with THREE spoons of sugar added. I drink nothing else but maybe a lemonade here and there a few times a year. I hate milk, tea, Kool~aid, the flavored waters...I hate it all except for my beloved RC's. My diet, food~wise, consists of potato chips and spoonfuls of peanut butter. I could live on these 2 things! (Come to think of it, I pretty much HAVE). Any type of sandwich meat for sandwiches cuz it's something quick and easy to grab. But it just happens to be one of the WORSE things for me to eat because of my blood pressure. Hubby has tried his best to make me eat veggies...I just can't do it. There's not any I LIKE enough, to have to EAT them. He'd go so far as to even put green beans on my dinner plate and I'd be like "And just WHAT ARE THESE!? You know better then to gimme that stuff". In the trash they'd go...cuz even the dogs won't eat'em, which should tell a body something right there. Hubby LOVES to cook, so he does almost ALL the food preparations and it's not exactly healthy choices either. But I don't blame him because I'd be fat even if he WASN'T the one doing all the cooking. I'm also the guinea pig for all of Hubby's cooking "experiments" some good, some not so good. Anyway, last week I made the decision..again, that I was going to get healthy. It's not going to happen overnight although I wish it would. Last week, I started drinking water. I was quite proud of myself when I'd reach automatically, for a water and NOT an RC. I still drink a few RC's a day cuz I can't go cold turkey and just not drink'em at all. I'm weak, I have no willpower. But instead of the 8 a day that I WAS drinking, I've been drinking 3 or 4 a day, I know it's still too much but, baby steps, ya know?? As a matter of fact, I'm drinking a bottle of water as I type! I've also cut back on the potato chips and other junk foods. When I get them now, I figure out many would make a 100 calories by reading on the back of the label of the bag. I had a major pitfall today though on my "new diet" ....I found a WHOLE BOX of Cheez~Its...oh Lawdy but I love those thangs! On the back of the box, it said 29 crackers were 140 calories. Of course I ate 'em. I'm weak, remember? But I'll get stronger. I hope. I'm still not exercising yet though. I get a walk or 2 daily with the hounds while we're out looking for the perfect photo to shoot. But it's not enough. I need something that REALLY gets me MOVING. I'll think of something though. What is my goal weight?? I'd love to be 120 again but I know for me, that's not going to happen so honestly, at this point, I'll take any kind of a loss right now. I've never been happy at ANY weight I've ever been at. In high school, I became bulimic/anorexic. I threw up every single thing I ate. Everything. I continued to "get rid" of my food even after I first married but I slowly slacked off and stopped purging. When I think about it now, being unhappy at 103 lbs.???...Seriously? To be honest, I've tried purging again, but I KNOW that's not the RIGHT way to do it. So, with small baby steps, I WILL make small changes that will hopefully add up over a year's time. I'd just like to tie my shoes without having to move a belly roll to do it, ya know? And you should see me when I'm trying to take a photo of something, where I need to get down on the ground to get the "right" shot. I've had to call Lucy (my biggest dog) to come over and help me get back up. She stands there and I put my hand on her as a "leverage" to get up with....sad..and it ain't none too pretty either! The Biggest Loser came on last Thursday, for the first time this season. So, Hubby and I weighed in. Yep, ONE HUNDRED AND NINETY~FOUR pounds and I have declared war! I know I didn't include a "before" pic of me, at this weight but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I'll think about it some more and maybe I'll add one tomorrow but I ain't promisin' nothing. :) Tomorrow, will be my 1 WEEK "weigh~in". I'll let y'all know what my 1ST week results are...if any! Wish me luck and feel free to "join in" if you're also at a point in YOUR life when you feel like you need to make a change and GOOD LUCK TO YOU! Thanks for stopping by! Be good and be pretty and as always.... ✻ღϠ₡ღ✻ God Bless ✻ღϠ₡ღ✻ |
HI! My name is Lori and I am a self~ proclaimed agoraphobic and rarely leave my home. My blog is a place for me to come and embrace my Edith Bunker tendencies and to share a few of the things I love. Stories, recipes and crafts, all with a little humor thrown in along the way! ღღ
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