I usually write my weekly "weigh~in" on Thursdays, but we had an unexpected death in the family. so the routine was shaken up a bit. The week has been a bad one. Both emotionally and "diet~wise". All I can say about this week is good riddance! It seems like every waking moment is consumed by FOOD. I'm either eating or thinking about eating or planning what I can eat, the next time I CAN eat. I don't want my days to be controlled by food. Wanna know what else is frustrating?? A day after my weigh~in last week, I stepped on the scales and and it was already 1 pound more than the day before. I really didn't think anything about it. But within a few days I had a THREE POUND GAIN and went into a deep panic mode. What was happening??!! To gain 3 pounds, I would have had to have eaten, what??..10,500 ADDITIONAL calories?! And that just did NOT happen. I was exercising more than I had been and I was definitely eating less than before. I just couldn't understand what was happening and why. Since I didn't have a great week last week, I thought maybe THIS week, would be a GOOD one. I just couldn't wait to see what I'd weigh at this week's weigh~in. Because honestly, I was hoping for a monthly goal of at least 10 pounds. It didn't happen. After going into panic mode with the 3 pound gain, I exercised MORE and I wrote down every single thing I ate. I'm allowing myself 1500 calories and only went over that 1500 calorie limit one time during this week. I ended up eating a lil over 1600 calories one day. Which I didn't think was TOO bad. (It was still less than I HAD been eating before the diet). I set my caloric intake at 1500 so I wouldn't feel like I was STARVING when I first started the diet. I know me, and a 1200 calorie a day, would NOT have worked. I would have been off that diet after the first week. For me, 1500 calories was more "manageable". A couple of weeks ago, I decided to add in a little light jogging to my "routine" and THEN ran across the "Couch to 5k" plan last week while searching online for tips for joggers and as a result of the jogging, my right knee has swollen so much that it made even walking difficult. The swelling would seem to go down during the day but then it would come back. So I eased up the on the jogging part of my routine. I think for me right now, it's just too much weight to be putting on the knee. I'm going to TRY to lose some more weight THEN add the jogging back into my exercise. I had to go the the doctor to renew my blood pressure meds, so while I was there I talked to her about my diet and exercise AND the weight gain I had for the week. She said the same thing basically about the 3 pounds, that there was probably no way I could have eaten 10,500 additional calories. When I told her about the walking and jogging, and the knee swelling up, she said the water retention within the knee and probably OTHER areas was the "probable" cause of the weight gain. A friend had actually told me the same thing, so Brenda, you know your stuff, girl!! :) My doctor had even mentioned the "Couch to 5k" plan before I did. She's also going to start the program after she gets clearance from HER doctor, because she had broken her foot last year. I thought it was kind of cool that she was going to be doing it too. Maybe she and I can compare notes at my next Dr. visit! :) It made me FEEL better....a little bit. But I was still disappointed...depressed...aggravated...disgusted...I think I covered them all. I was able to get SOME of those extra pounds off but not all of them. Lord knows I tried because I did NOT wanna have to come and tell y'all that I GAINED. So I weighed in and this was the final number...unfortunately. I gained 1.6 pounds.
However, as with anything in life, I'm going to try to look at the positive side of things and think about the GOOD changes I've noticed this month. Here are some of the benefits I've noticed: * I can climb stairs easier than I could a month ago. Before, my knees just would not bend and I'd have to hold on the the railing as I went up or down. But now it's like "LOOK MA!! NO HANDS!!" * When I started doing the floor exercises, after I was done, I'd have to literally grab onto the coffee table to help get me get up off the floor. (SO humiliating!) But now, I'm able to get up WITHOUT my old friend, the coffee table's, help. Now, I ain't saying I can just jump right up but I CAN slowly get up without the coffee table now. It may not seem like a big deal to someone else, but I tell ya, at my age and weight, it's HARD getting up off the floor! :) * When I started the exercises, I was doing 10 of each exercise. I do the basic stuff like leg lifts, sit~ups, push ups, jumping jacks, "butt tucks", stuff like that. The first time I did them, I thought I'd die before I was done! But now, depending on which exercise it is, I'm up to 25 and 50 on each exercise. I'm slowly able to DO more. * I've noticed a HUGE difference in how I feel when I'm out walking now. Again, I was SO out of shape (and still am) that when I first started the "serious" walking, I felt like my lungs would collapse. It's not a pleasant feeling, but it IS getting better. So, while I DID have a GAIN this week I can also see and recognize the benefits that are slowly coming about with all of this. I didn't hit my "goal" of 10 pounds for the month, but it's not the end of the world. Better days WILL be ahead! And THAT is my "Light at the end of the tunnel". That there will be better days ahead. My monthly weight loss total was only 6 pounds but over a month ago I would have given ANYTHING to be able to say, "I lost 6 lbs!!". I'm in between feeling happy that I've stuck with it this long but wishing I'd lost more. This blog helps me to WANT to stay on task with it. Even if no one else is reading it, the blog helps hold me accountable and I want to do better and it helps to remind me, in my darkest moments, what I wanted to achieve when I first set out on this "grand adventure". But even I know that I'm still not giving this diet that 100% that it deserves. I need to work on that. THAT will be my "project" this week! I was proud of the fact that I helped Ma make TWO "Holy Cow" cakes yesterday and I DID NOT eat a piece, even though she offered. I DID lick the Cool Whip spoon though and...no regrets! :) (I'll post the recipe mid~week sometime) Speaking of Ma, she lost 1 pound...YAY for Ma!! That put her monthly total at 5 pounds. It's like she and I were talking, if we just keep losing 3-5 pounds a month, we'll eventually get there. I hope YOUR week was a great one and if you've started a diet or fitness plan, I wish you the best of luck! Thanks for stopping by.... Be good and be pretty and as always.... ✻ღϠ₡ღ✻ God Bless ✻ღϠ₡ღ✻ |
HI! My name is Lori and I am a self~ proclaimed agoraphobic and rarely leave my home. My blog is a place for me to come and embrace my Edith Bunker tendencies and to share a few of the things I love. Stories, recipes and crafts, all with a little humor thrown in along the way! ღღ
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